"One whom in in control of his mind, is in control of everything around him, of the world."

Been thinking a little about whether I should really study medicine, after my job attachment revealed that I may be quite uncomfortable with seeing needles and stuff being injected into patients. Well, humans are supposedly very adaptable creatures, and seeing enough of the same thing would make you numb to it apparently.

But that's not really what I want. I don't want to become numbed to it, and become unfeeling towards patients or something like that. I don't want to just view them as just things that need to be injected. True, it may be less difficult for me if I do that, but I don't think that's right. Knowing their pain is important, but once again, if I keep getting light-headed like I did during the job attachment, that's not gonna work out as well.

Just need to draw the fine line between sympathising with patients and not getting too affected by their pain, or emotions possibly. Perhaps all this will come with experience. Hopefully it will. Only time will tell, I guess.

Wonder if there really is anything that can't be changed by the mind, be it fears or mindsets. People find some changes impossible, but perhaps it's just very hard. It is possible, it's just about how far you're willing to go to overcome it.

Universities somehow don't seem that different from what we're already experiencing.

Perhaps that's just an outsider's perspective. Went to SUTD and SMU already, going to NTU tomorrow. Honestly, I think I'm either going to NUS, or maybe the new Duke NTU thingy, so yea, the visits are kinda pointless for me. Anyway to sum today up, I learnt balloon sculpting. Was interesting, though most of mine were kinda fail haha. Let's see how Bollywood dancing goes tomorrow.

Ignorance is bliss, it seems. But what can we do when we're no longer ignorant?

Back to school... again...

Well the good news is that I've finished reading all the manga I have, basically I just read volume 58 and 59. Also read Blink... it was an interesting book. To be taken with a pinch of salt though.

Anyway school starts tomorrow, again. I think I said that two weeks before. Anyway, back to waking up before the sun rises. Not that I didn't do that during my work attachment. But well, it feels more draining to be commuting on the MRT with other tired and drained working people every day. I'd really prefer school to that. Only got two more years of this kind of life (mot including uni), have to enjoy it while it lasts.

So... the JC1s will be coming in next week. Time to get back together with the people from the main stream I guess, no more IP. Hope it won't be that bad. Hope I get a decent class as well. Sigh, whatever it is, I'll just have to go along with it for these two years.

I got some ideas once again, but once again I don't have the time do draw them. Ok I have to admit, rewatching Death Note anime might have been kind of unnecessary for the past few days, but ah well I really couldn't help myself. Shall try to get them drawn over the next few days I guess.

Time taken: 3 hours

Sleep deficiency

I'd really prefer going to school to going to work, even if I do get new work experiences every day. Probably because the day is so long, and I'm too tired to do anything once I get back. Plus the 1 hour commute with the rest of the working population every morning.

I think I'll dedicate a post to my whole two week of this work attachment, but I'll get down to writing it maybe this weekend. But if I'm too lazy I'll just leave it.

I have planned out what I'm gonna do over the CNY hols very well. Work-wise, yea there's the Pulse newsletter. But I also intend to finish reading OP volumes 58 and 59, Blink which I bought from MPH with my voucher, and colour in that scan, draw a few new characters maybe, and practise scenery. Yup, got a hell lot of stuff to do. Just hoping that time might pass slower this weekend.

Perhaps my aspirations need a little re-thinking.

First week of work attachment

I have to say, this work attachment really gives a good experience, I'm glad I'm in it. To sum up what I did over the past few days, it was basically following patients in the Falls clinic to observe their interviews and consultations, running the clinic in the Geri department, got to see a lot of people with dementia as well. Sat through a session where the doctors and physiotherapists discussed the individual dementia cases too. Went for surgeries in General Surgery for the past two days, mainly saw hernia and gallstone cases, though there was one with a pancreatic cyst too. Don't think I want to become a surgeon though, this isn't the kind of thing I wanna do. Chanced upon an emergency case in the OT next to us too, it was a boy involved in a motorbike accident, had injuries on his head, face, and torso. Was a new experience seeing the seriousness of an emergency surgery. Well at least the boy survived, though he's in really bad shape now.

I've been so busy the past week that I haven't been able to blog much. I think this year I may really have to cut down on my weekly anime and manga, I already can't catch up as it is, not to mention tumblr. Sigh, it's about time I started sacrificing these I guess, it's a wonder how I did so well last year with all these distractions. Once lessons start, I'm gonna go all the way, these two years are really important.

Looks like Sunda's the only one I know coming to VJ. Rest of them didn't do so well. Sigh, guess we'll have to catch up at Keith's house every holiday just like we used to, just that it'll be harder this time.

I finally got volume 58 of OP, thanks Farhana for the really late present :D I've really got to set aside time for reading my remaining OP volumes, and some books I bought with my MPH voucher, pretty interesting ones. Probably over the CNY holiday I guess. Free time is running out, really gotta make the most of what I have left. Oh here's what I drew the other day, I really wanna add in the background and colour it soon.



Yup, gonna settle most of the small remaining details for the Pulse newsletter tomorrow, and hopefully start colouring that.

Sigh, life is just a sequence of repeating cycles it seems.

Back to school tomorrow

Sigh, back to waking up at ungodly hours in the morning again, along with really long bus rides. Can't believe the holidays are over. There's still plenty of things I want to do. Sigh, I'll try to squeeze some time in for them in this soon to be packed year.

Went to Astons at City Square for lunch today. Thanks for the present guys, now I can beat THY in pokemon hehe.

Just realised I haven't uploaded any scans of my recent drawings. I'll do it sometime when I'm not too lazy. Alright, I'd better sleep now.

Class chalet

Came back from class chalet today, it was a pretty good time haha. Barely slept there, there's really no difference between day and night there. The nightwalk went relatively okay, but something tells me this might be the last nightwalk there is, assuming we have more chalets in future.

Well, I'm seventeen today. It's a nice number :D Had wonderful chocolate cake this afternoon, then I kinda napped for a bit too long to catch up on lost sleep. Gonna read OP volume 52 now. And I think I'll try so sketch out some characters I had ideas for earlier on.

You'll never be as young as you are today. These times will all eventually come to pass, you'll have to make the best out of it while you can. I'm gonna make sure this year will be a good year. Bring it on, 2012 :D

Read OP Volume 43 today :D

Started on the One Piece volumes I bought, beginning with 43. I think when I'm reading it printed out on a book rather than off a screen, I pay more attention to the art style and details. Damn, One Piece is everything I would ever want in a manga, honestly it's the kind of manga I've always been wanting to make. The reader's corner, the way the preview for the next volume is done, the random stuff like the popularity polls, all of these I have done before in all the old comics I made when I was in primary school.

Well, at least now I can learn more from Oda's style, and get better with effects, details, and maybe hairstyles. Oh, and these volumes I bought are also a good reference for action poses, since they're all more or less in the fighting phase of the storyline.

I really need more time to draw. Sigh. I'd be lucky if I get another one-pager done before my job attachment starts. On the bright side, at least now I'm reserving a few hours a day for reading manga :D

2012

Well, it's 2012 already. Looks like I've lived through yet another year. I've said it before, but I don't think anything could compare to the past two years. I'll just have to see what 2012 is gonna be like. Bring it on 2012, and JC1 life.

Read my Death Note today. Took me like 4 to 5 hours to finish it, and that's only one book. It's been so long since I read it, I now remember how it's one of the best manga there is in terms of storylines. It's a great mystery story, with a touch of the supernatural, that I'd recommend everyone to read. There's only a hundred chapters. And reading the manga is different from watching the movie, the story in the manga is different, and much better than the movie. Never judge a manga by it's real life movie. Judging it by it's anime might be okay though.

Gonna start reading the OP volumes I have tomorrow too :D