Into the midst of hectic-ness

Haven't had much time to blog recently. Well, I went for my first homegroup session on Saturday, it was an interesting new experience I guess. Was teaching a Sec 1 normal acad girl, who wasn't quite motivated to study. Hmm, shall try teaching other levels in the following weeks, and see which one I'm best suited for.

It does seem to be getting quite busy, with PI, the fundraising this Saturday and the preparations for it, the proposal for the workshop for kids, and of course schoolwork. I have got to find some free time to draw. Feels like ages since I've done so.

Back from Interact camp :D

The past 3 days have been pretty awesome :D Not only were the games fun and all, but I also got to know some new people, people I'll be working with in future. I have to say, the group I'm in is pretty awesome. The camp also was pretty useful, there was stuff like the design thinking workshop which was really quite insightful.

Well, it's finally time for me to be responsible and be active in a CCA. I'm gonna give this my best. Going for this camp was also good in the sense that it gave me a well needed break from work. It's kinda ugghh to have to come back to reality though.

Oh and I can finally sleep on my comfy bed again yay :D

This is not quite good

My habit of usually being prepared for the future, expecting what's going to happen, is a little... self-destructive now. I'm a little worried about what will happen if it turns out taking KI wasn't the best choice. Or even if I switch to GP, if it would turn out to be a good choice. Some might say it's a little too early to think of all these, but I'm really kinda worried about how this will impact my eventual A level grades. After all, it isn't an understatement to say that your A level grades determine your life. Sigh. Mental strength eh?

Fear is paralyzing, crippling. Somewhat a self fulfilling prophecy too. I have to find a way to escape this.

Time kinda flies

It's already the end of term 1. Something tells me this year is gonna go by in a flash. Sigh.

Anyway, meeting v13 before and after school today was pretty nice, and somewhat nostalgic. Doing stuff like bringing the sofa back to our class, and just talking crap at the treehouse, it really brings back a lot of memories. Well, at least we'll always have that painted mark on the tree in the treehouse (hopefully it doesn't get removed). Though we've been separated, whenever we get together it always seems like nothing's changed :)

Escape from reality

Well today was kinda nostalgic, walking up to class (what used to be my classroom anyway) and seeing the usual bunch of people. Sigh, I do miss my class. Being so busy with everything hasn't allowed me much time to think about it, but nothing could ever be equivalent to the past two years I've spent. Though we're all in different classes, it's really nice that we can all still come together these few mornings and gather in class, just like old times.

The older you grow, the more memories you carry, the more you realise the past is something you can never return to, and that all you can do is be hopeful of the future. As much as we'd like to, we can't live in the past, we have to accept whatever the future throws at us.

The eye of the storm

I've managed to move away from all the madness and stress around me, well not move away, but I've found peace somewhere within it, yet away from it. I seem to have gotten my confidence back. Regardless of how tough this year's gonna be, I WILL do well. As for KI, all I can do is hope that I can handle the essays decently well.

No point over-thinking about mistakes that have already been made, I'll have to have trust in myself and move forward, just like how I've always done so. Though how I managed to do that in the past seems a little alien to me.