This is not quite good

My habit of usually being prepared for the future, expecting what's going to happen, is a little... self-destructive now. I'm a little worried about what will happen if it turns out taking KI wasn't the best choice. Or even if I switch to GP, if it would turn out to be a good choice. Some might say it's a little too early to think of all these, but I'm really kinda worried about how this will impact my eventual A level grades. After all, it isn't an understatement to say that your A level grades determine your life. Sigh. Mental strength eh?

Fear is paralyzing, crippling. Somewhat a self fulfilling prophecy too. I have to find a way to escape this.

Time kinda flies

It's already the end of term 1. Something tells me this year is gonna go by in a flash. Sigh.

Anyway, meeting v13 before and after school today was pretty nice, and somewhat nostalgic. Doing stuff like bringing the sofa back to our class, and just talking crap at the treehouse, it really brings back a lot of memories. Well, at least we'll always have that painted mark on the tree in the treehouse (hopefully it doesn't get removed). Though we've been separated, whenever we get together it always seems like nothing's changed :)

Escape from reality

Well today was kinda nostalgic, walking up to class (what used to be my classroom anyway) and seeing the usual bunch of people. Sigh, I do miss my class. Being so busy with everything hasn't allowed me much time to think about it, but nothing could ever be equivalent to the past two years I've spent. Though we're all in different classes, it's really nice that we can all still come together these few mornings and gather in class, just like old times.

The older you grow, the more memories you carry, the more you realise the past is something you can never return to, and that all you can do is be hopeful of the future. As much as we'd like to, we can't live in the past, we have to accept whatever the future throws at us.

The eye of the storm

I've managed to move away from all the madness and stress around me, well not move away, but I've found peace somewhere within it, yet away from it. I seem to have gotten my confidence back. Regardless of how tough this year's gonna be, I WILL do well. As for KI, all I can do is hope that I can handle the essays decently well.

No point over-thinking about mistakes that have already been made, I'll have to have trust in myself and move forward, just like how I've always done so. Though how I managed to do that in the past seems a little alien to me.

This is annoying, studying is taking up waaaay too much of my time. It's just like exam period, just that this is merely to catch up and follow lessons. Sleep is really a scarce resource now. Sigh. We always think that our current situation is hard and difficult, that whatever life was like before this was much better. But after moving on to the next chapter of life, we'd feel the same way. It's a reality that we've got to accept, life just gets harder. But that doesn't mean that you can't be happy. Just that it'll be harder.

Time seems to have passed quite quickly, don't you think? It seems like an eternity ago that we were carefree children. Those are times we can never go back to anymore.

Busy busy busy

Oh god JC1 really is as busy as they say it to be. Even now I'm using precious time of which could be spent finishing my tutorials, reading ahead for my lecture notes, so I don't have to stay up tonight to do them. Well, it's really about taking your own initiative, so from now on I don't think I'm gonna waste break times, time is way too precious now. Who cares what others think, I'm just gonna go study in a corner every break.

Well I'm hoping I get into Interact Club, so I'll have a main CCA for once. Think the reason why I avoided that all along was because I'd rather not have the responsibility, and slack off. Guess it's time to step up and actually take up responsibilities.

I think I've been following decently well for lessons so far, though I kinda feel insecure, being in a new system. For one, the learning curve is really steep, you've gotta prepare beforehand if you want to be able to keep up in lectures.

Quite glad I'm still in close contact with my OG, I think if it wasn't for them, JC life would kinda be a little more lonely, since I haven't gotten to know my class that well yet. But then again, I doubt classes can be as bonded as they were in IP, being so busy and all, and people being split for different lectures.

Gotta really work hard, and sacrifice a lot. My weekly entertainment has been cut down to a bare minimum of just reading the weekly manga. Don't even have time to watch the anime anymore.

Alright then back to work now. Good luck to myself.

Last day of JCO

Havent been blogging at all recently because all I do everyday once I reach home is sleep. Anyway, I started this week thinking JCO wasn't going to be that great, that I wouldn't make many lasting friends. How wrong I was. R6 I the best sub-OG I could ask for :D

It's been a long time since I've enjoyed myself this much and gone so crazy. Going to Changi and Marina Square, playing Ultimate ninja till late at night, going back to school the next day dead tired, but not letting that stop us from having even more fun, with mass dances and all. I really have to say that these few days have been awesome, I really hope I can continue to keep in touch with these awesome people :D